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FREE AT LAST [08 Nov 2005|06:46am]
[ mood | calm ]

Homeless...Its sorta neat..I have all the freedom in the world..lol..Im not really homeless.Im staying with Joe for a couple of days and im moving in with Sarah..Lifes a fucking box of chocolates isnt it..Well, it's 6:47am and i am still going to school. I am not going to be a loser. Actually, im going to spit on my parents front door the day i graduate.. :) <3 Im not bitter <3 haha... I LOVE JOE....and Sarah.. My boyfriend/bestfriend.. and my best girlfriend... what more do you need? Im pretty content. I have probably cried more from their kindness then from the ordeal in general..I have good friends.Thanks guys..Thank all of you that have any compassion. Its so nice to see who your friends truely are..Obviously i picked a good bunch because they are all so welcoming and kind..I love my life..My parents are just a stumbling block-nothing more..i'll make it.. and it wont be because of them...What goes around comes around-thats both good and bad..Watch out bitches and look forward friends ;).. I love you guys (especially joe)-lol

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my hump.my hump my hump my hump [29 Oct 2005|05:49pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Its been well over a month since ive updated.Things are well.Me n Joe have been at Todd's the last 3 days and ive been at Joes house since before the hurricane even hit..I miss my bed, but i don't miss all this time with my baby..We have a date tonite,hima nd Todd should be home from work in like 15minuets or so and im so happy.Ive been alone sice 10:(..But me and Joe had a GREAT morning n he saw me on his break.I cant wait to get high..YAAYYY..Holla Back

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Just an update... [03 Sep 2005|05:55pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Well.. nothing new.. i am doing great.. not to good in school but whatever..Joe and I are having our 6 months on Monday,, He has somthing special planned-im excited to find out.. This morning i woke up at his house and he gave me this HUGE monkey.. im trying to think of a good name.. i love my boyfriend-hehe <3

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bored...hehe [19 Jul 2005|04:43pm]
[ mood | high ]

___ Favorites___

29. Movie(s): Son In Law,Sin City,Cruel Intentions
30. TV Show: all thos elam dating shows on MTV,Buffy-lol,Andy Milonakis
31. Color: red, black and pink
32. Rapper: Dr.Dre, Eminem and The Game
33. Band: Simple Plan, Dashboard and Cake
34. Song: forgot about Dre
35. Soda: Pepsi or Diet Coke
36. Candy: nerds
37. Sport to play: i dance.. thats it
38. Sport To Watch:basketball
39. favorite brand to wear: J-Lo
40. Store: Charlotte Rousse
41. School Subject: free period
42. Animal: dogs and sharks and pigs
43. Book: The Snowman
44. Magazine: People


49. Eating:  nothing
50. Drinking: water
51. Typing:words
52. Online?: nope

53. Listening
To: silence
54. Thinking About: what joe is saying to me
55. Wanting To:get drunk
56. Watching: the comp. screen
57. Wearing: clothes you faggot
___Your Future___

58. Want Kids?: yea.. 2 or 3
59. Want to be Married?: yep
60. Careers in Mind:parilegal,politician or lawyer or all three
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

67. Cute or Sexy: sexy
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: kisses
70. Short or Tall: average
71. Easygoing or serious: both
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Fattyy or Skinny: average
74. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive but still a little loud at times
75. Hook-up or Relationship: in a relashonship
76. Sweet or Caring:obviously both.. idiot
77. Trouble Maker or Hestiant One:trouble maker

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a stranger: yea
79. had Alcohol: plenty
80. Smoked: yep
81. Ran Away From Home: yep
82. broken a Bone: yep
83. Got an X-ray: yep
84. Broken Someones Heart: yep
85. Broke Up With Someone: yep.
86. Turned Someone Down: yep
87. Cried When Someone Died: yep.
88. Cried At School: probably
___Do You Believe In___

89. God: yep
90. Miracles: yep
91. Love At First sight: nope
92. Ghosts: yep
93. Aliens:i have one sitting next to me
94. Soul Mates: sure
95. Heaven: yep
96. Hell: yep
98. Kissing on The First Date:i believe in more
99. Horoscopes: yep

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good times [16 Jul 2005|02:32am]
[ mood | groggy ]

I have had some good things happening to me lately... i am a spoiled brat after all... im not complaining..i am soo wrecked right now but its great... im gunna go to sleep soon.. bye

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[26 Jun 2005|04:34pm]
[ mood | blah ]

last night i went with joe and maggie to one of my friends parties at a time share on the beach and we got pretty screwed up.i was glad i went because i saw alot of my friends  and it was nice.. Then we left and went and drank some more and i decided that Bacardi Silver Orange is my favorite drink ever..La La

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[25 Jun 2005|03:00pm]
[ mood | loved ]

i had such an amazing night with Joe last night... Mark,Maggie,Joe,Iain and I all hung out and did stuff... I love Joe so much.. He is definatly my other half... Last night when we where lying down in the parking lot and you told me you wanted to marry me i wanted to cry so bad.. I love you baby..Well.. tonite we are going to a SBoldcottish Festivle and getting really drunk... Im excited... Well gotta run.. Bye..

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[25 Jun 2005|02:55pm]
[ mood | loved ]

i had such an amazing night with Joe last night... Mark,Maggie,Joe,Iain and I all hung out and did stuff... I love Joe so much.. He is definatly my other half... Last night when we where lying down in the parking lot and you told me you wanted to marry me i wanted to cry so bad.. I love you baby..Well.. tonite we are going to a Scottish Festivle and getting really drunk... Im excited... Well gotta run.. Bye..

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[10 Jun 2005|12:48am]
[ mood | drunk ]

smoked.. then went to bikini bobs with jow,maggie, mark, fallon, preston and iain and mike and drank...im very drunk... hehe... ok.. well tood-a-loo

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[10 Jun 2005|12:46am]
[ mood | drunk ]

smoked.. then went to bikini bobs with jow,maggie, mark, fallon, preston and iain and mike and drank...im very drunk... hehe... ok.. well tood-a-loo

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[09 Jun 2005|12:50am]
[ mood | drunk ]

lots of vicodin.....la la la... lots of drama in orlando.. wish i could save you Maggie... ill see you tommorow.. yippie :)

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[02 Jun 2005|06:17pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

work.. get fucked up....what a life...i wanna go to orlando...

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yay! [02 Jun 2005|01:00am]
[ mood | anxious ]

4 bumps... 1 bump... whatever.. i miss you maggie... COME THE FUCK HOME!!!

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[29 May 2005|11:41pm]
[ mood | drained ]

i dont know what kind of kids would do coke from 4pm in the afternoon to 3pm the next day,go get wasted that night drinking,smoke, and take bars...man....the youth these days is out of control.. well.. time for bed..crazy stupid kids..

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[27 May 2005|10:08pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

getting bitched at by the parents consistently.,, they want me to get a job.. i dont want a job-waaaaaa... i just wanna get trashed everyday... yea.. sounds like a loser but im young and i do what i FUCKING want so fuck you.. :).. i love you.

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Time... [22 May 2005|04:11pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I feel so emotional right now.. I really wanna cry..My dad seems deppressed and its sad because he is such a cheerful happy guy. i think its my brother. he is so impossible. they love us so much and we treat them like shit. im going to treat my parents better. i love them so much and i really dont act like it.i know im not telling them this, but atleast everyone else will know how sorry i really i am for being such a bitch to them.well. this weekend has been good.yesturday joe and i went to this little boy i use to babysit's first communion and there was an open bar and we got in my mom's words 'WASTED'-hehe.. i had even knocked over a drink.. then we got in mark's words 'TOASTED' the rest of the night.. i slept at Maggies.. it was fun. we watched the exorcist(my first time).. oh yea. and friday me,joe,mark and maggie saw Requium for a Dream and that was really depressing. i also saw Monster in Law with Joe. that was soo great-man, i love J-Lo. well now im off to go shopping with Michelle which should be fun. im excited to hang out with her again. well. have a good day.

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[18 May 2005|08:36pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Well. life is pretty dull.. ive been going through alot lately...Maggies birthday is tommorow and we are going out to celebrate.. To bad i cant drink anymore but i really need to get in shape.. Im watching Smallville right now and its not even interesting to me, i just cant find my remote and im sick of flipping through channels one by one. I miss some of my old friends.. wahhh...Well, Joe is out for Sushi-yuck and im just relaxing tonite.. well.. good day.. waiting for more good times..

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[11 May 2005|01:54pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I have: funny fingers
I see: ugly boys
I hate:
I miss:
Orlando with Joe
I wonder: why im unhappy somtimes
I find: drewl(sp) on my pillow
I want: popcorn
I regret: poptarts
I need: self control
I wish: I was perfect
I fear: my grade on my Algebra 2 test
I hear: kids in my class
I love: sleep
I smell: someones nasty breath
I crave: junk food
I feel: sleepy

When was the last time you…
Talked to an ex: long time ago

Kissed someone: yesturday

Were sarcastic: today

Laughed: i dont remember..prolly when i was drunk at some point
Cried: yesterday at my pshyciatrist
Had a nightmare: actually just a few days ago
Danced: in my room yesturday
Smiled: yesturday when i saw Joe
Bought something? yesturday
Last book you read: currently reading Deadline for school-but not really
Last song you heard: Hold u down-J-Lo and Fat Joe
Last movie you saw:American History X
Last thing you had to drink: water

Last time you showered: this morning
Last thing you ate: salami, cheese and a hard boiled egg.

Do you…
Smoke: yes
Do drugs: what do u consider drugs
Live in the moment: when neccessary
Sleep with stuffed animals: somtimes with my Scooby if im sad
Have sex: why ,do u care.?..
Play an instrument: i play the air guitar
Had a dream that keeps coming back: somtimes
Believe there is life on other planets: no
Believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever? yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others: me..no way
Remember your first love? impossible to forget
Have any straight friends?yes
Read the newspaper? seldomly
Still love your first love? things change
Believe in miracles? i believe God performs miracles

Have a favorite candy? butterfinger bb's
Wish on stars? no
Believe in God: yes
Believe in magic: yes but i dont agree with it
Believe in astrology? i dunno
Like the taste of alcohol: BEER!
Hate yourself? often times
Talk to strangers who IM you: i hardley talk to not strangers
Have any bad habits: biting my nails
Like your handwriting: when i try
Collect anything? scooby stuff kinda
Have a secret crush? JoE
Have any piercings? ears n my tounge this weekend i hope!!..oh and my tregas
Have any tattoos: yes 2
Go to church: sometimes
Have any pets: pet ashtray

Wear hats: yes
Pray: somtimes
Believe in ghosts: spirits
Care about looks? yes
Believe in Satan: yes
Believe in witches? yea
Have a best friend: close friends yes..bestfriend..no.. things dont last..my mom is closest

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[04 May 2005|10:11am]
[ mood | drained ]

well im in school... school sucks.today i have to go to Vivi(my shrink)and cry. Yesturday Joe and I watched American History X..-its such an amazing movie. He wants me to see some other movie now, i forgot the name though. Well, life is the same. i need to start looking for a new job cause i quit my last one.summer starts soon... yippie..

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[02 May 2005|10:17am]
[ mood | content ]

went to orlando this weekend and had a blast. it was me,joe,mark,maggie,fallon, and jett.. we just basically did what people in college do.. man, i can't wait till high school is over. We went City Walk, and me and Joe took a bob marley picture.. we watched Garden State, and i saw a real college dorm..it was exciting. I think one of my favorite parts of the trip was when me,maggie, and fallon went on a walk around Mark's neighborhood.. The weather was so beautiful and the trees were so pretty.Maggie and Joe continue to overrule me on music... blah!.. Ok.. well life is well.. i cant complain much.. i just need more meds...

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[21 Apr 2005|01:45pm]
[ mood | blah ]

So hey..long time no entry.. nothing new..i took some aderol like 2 weeks ago and it really fucked up my chemicals with the other meds i am on so i spent last monday and tuesday crying and at 2 different doctors...im glad they gave me tranks because i would prolly have gone insane by now.. they are putting me on lithium which ive been told really crazy shit..im kinda excited..well yesturday was 420.. ill have pics up soon..tommorow night going to sarah's..prolly to a party or somthing.. i hope.. saturday-prolly hanging out with joe.. well.. i miss some of you.. <3

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[07 Apr 2005|09:56pm]
[ mood | numb ]

Well..so..hey!.. i havent written in awhile..lifes been busy..im so high its so nice.ive had a few emotional breakdowns these past few weeks..alot of "real" stress has been thrown at me and u know..theres only so much a 17 year old spoiled dumb ass girl can handle. im going to ask my doctors if they will up my meds or give me some uppers..im really in need..i smoke so much im starting to get colds more often and stuff and i always am so tired.. i prolly wont stop though...nothing really new in the hood though.. im still with joe.its been alittle over a month now..thats pretty cool..ive become pretty good friends with his bestfriend Mark's girlfriend, Maggie..she's pretty awesome.im trying to get ready for summer-ive been like a week without fast food.. im proud of myself..but i sure do miss it....:(.. ::sigh:: i want a wrap...but no... i should prolly go to bed.. i have two tests tommorow and i didnt study for either..if my report card is good when i get it next week than i might be gettin my car..we'll see how that works out.. see ya lata... *bastard: :i miss you love*

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lights out on the vision street [21 Mar 2005|11:40am]
[ mood | groggy ]

iv'e had a lovely weekend.. i saw sara , lulu,john,evan,adam,krystal and some of my other friends.. i was mostly excited to see sara and evan because those are my two bestfriends up in Jax. i can't wait to move there when i graduate..i've come to be really fond of magazines that guys read and burning my eyelashes off while smokin-heh. it was painful...ok, im sitting by this freak in the computer lab..he's like tapping the table and whispering to himself and like rubbing the papers he has-i think he has an imaginary friend and he doesnt want us to know... i missed some of you. :)

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[16 Mar 2005|10:23pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

i dont really write in here as much as i use to causei figure no one really cares to read my shit.. but today i wanna write.. mme and michelle are going to have hot sex tommorow.frriday i leave for jacksonville.. i love it there but circumstances suck and i dont wanna go.. but whatever.. i should prolly just make the best of it..now.. to smoke and watch aqua teen.. later

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[10 Mar 2005|01:36pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

i had alittle bit of a nervous break down yesturday morning... i havent smoked in 2 days which sucks so bad..i cleaned my room yesturday, finally.. my dad calls my room "the batman cave", but he says it in spanish...It's so clean now. im very glad...i watched the new episode of South Park last night to... i was alittle dissapointed but it was pretty funny..so lawin..jewfin..FONT>

 Joe is coming back today...i'll see him in less than 2 hours.. im so glad.. ive missed him.. don't really know what we are up to this weekend.. i do know that i need to start payin more attention in school or im never going to get a car.. Oh yea.i have to work tonite.. Im not really dreading it like i was earlier.. i don't mind. i need the money and i need to do somthing productive and active...laterrr<3

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[08 Mar 2005|01:32pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

i finally have someone that will roll a beach ball in the dirt with me...i miss him <3

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weekend of the year [06 Mar 2005|10:53pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

ok.so today was just plain awesome..had lunch with michelle n joe and my papi..than joe n I went to the nail salon and he sat by me while i got a pedicure.. than i just had an amazing day with him...i cant wait to see him tommorow.. i miss him already... everything is just starting to work out in my life at such an unexpected time...the only bad thing is is that someone that i care about so much is upset with me... i just hope everything works out for the good.. well.. im off to cleaning this tornado wreck.. farewell and good riddens to all...... <3

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[06 Mar 2005|10:46am]
[ mood | content ]

well..yesturday was so awesome. went to the everglades with joe, michelle, bobby ,nicole and jessica and there were a bunch of other kids there to. smoked and stuff.. joe asked me out <3 hehe... now it's 10:47 in the morning and im not showered and michelle is going to be here in a few minuets and joe is coming in like an hour and my room looks like a tornado came through it..whatever.. i've had a great weekend. <3

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lala [05 Mar 2005|12:22am]
[ mood | good ]

had a really awesome time tonite...<3

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yepp... [04 Mar 2005|10:37am]
[ mood | my tummy hurts.. ]

what can i say.. gettin high as usual...la la la..<3 going out tommorow night with bestest buddy...even though he has another bestest buddy.... whatever.. im still excited..

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[28 Feb 2005|11:17pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

Ok so yeah.. my day has just been the usual.. school. shrink  and smoke.. damn, i have my own 3's..yeah....im a winner!! ding sing.. someone fall in love with me....lol....ok.. i filled out a survey.. i like them.. they help me think about things that i never think abiut.. k bye. <3

[[ f i r s t s ]]
First Best Friend: Michelle Baldovin and Frankie Padron   
First break-up: Ricky Vono
First screen name:Neafl

First self purchased album: prolly the backstreet boys or somthing to that affect
First funeral:My friend Rob Hunt <3RIP 
First pets: RUSSEL....my beagle
First piercing/tattoo: ears(1month old)tattoo(feb 05)
First true love: caesar
First enemy: ????
First big trip: to Chile when i was 6 and i got so sick i almost died :)
First music you remember: beachboys

[[ l a s t s ]]
Last car ride: home from the shrinks today with my mami
Last kiss: like 2 weeks ago
Last good cry: awhile now....
Last movie seen: in theaters i saw Million Dollar Baby and on tv.. a lifetime movie...
Last beverage drank: agua=water
Last food consumed: yogurt=strawberry-yum yum
Last crush: ::sigh:::
Last phone call: Michelle
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: my sick ass sandels
Last item bought: a honey dutch
Last annoyance: my mom asking me about a book in school....
Last time wanting to die: yesturday

[[ r e l a t i o n s h i p s ]]
Who is your best friend? michelle
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? umm..not really

[[ s p e c i f i c s ]]
Do you do drugs? smoke bud...
What kind of shampoo do you use? Fructise or Kendra or Paul Mitchelle
What are you most scared of? thats a secret.....
What are you listening to right now? nothing
Who is the last person that called you? michelle
Where do you want to get married? i dont know anymore
What would you change about yourself? everything

[[ h a v e | y o u | e v e r ]]
Smoked? have u ever!!! damn.. everyday
Bungee jumped? i dont think so.. ive fallen off a tree though
Made yourself throw up? yea
Skinny dipped? yea
Ever been in love? yea
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yyyyyyeaaaahhh
Pictured your crush naked? i did now....
Cried when someone died? yea
Lied? never :)
Fallen for your best friend? nope   
Rejected someone? yep
Used someone? most likely
Done something you regret? atleast once a day

[[ n u m b e r ]]
Of times i have had my heart broken: 1
Of hearts i have broken: 1
Of guys i've kissed: um...1,2,900....??? who knows.?? no j/k.. i lost count after awhile but its not too many
Of girls i've kissed: prolly like 5 or 6,, maybe more...
Of continents i have lived in: 1
Of tight friends: very limited
Of cds i own: plenty
Of scars on my body: a million five hundred

[[ f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s ]]
Gold or Silver: yellow gold
What was the last film you saw at the movies: Millionare Dollar Baby
Could you live without your computer: probably not
Would you color your hair: i do it when its starts to look dull or when i get bored
Habla espanol: some...its my parents first language
Drink alcohol: yea...ICE....
Like watching sunrises or sunsets: not my thing.. i like to be asleep right before sunrise and the sunset takes to long
What hurts the most: ever meeting him.....
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Mothers stable right now [27 Feb 2005|07:33pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Friday:went to school.. left around 1:00 and went out and than around 5 went out again... Smoked as usual.. me and ashley went to walmart and 4:30 in the morning.. we went shopping. it was fun... than we all went back to the house and smoked some more.. all we do is smoke smoke smoke... its lovely. Me and Gett slept out on the couch. it was almost 6 when went to sleep and i had to work at 11... i woke up at like 9.. than i went to work.. smoked some more on the way to work, during my break, and that night...

Saturday:After working all day,, i just smoked and went to sleep around 9 after watchin some tv.

Today:woke up around 11:30, went to lunch with my parents and some people from Chile.. spanish people take forever to do anything. i got home about an hour ago. Im goin to smoke in a little bit.. i hate it when im not now.. i feel so different when im not and i just dont like it..

          Im so unhappy with my life... i cry and cry and cry... even though im about to start, i dont think its that. I just want someone that will smoke with me and will sit on dirt with me and roll a beach ball around with me.. not much to ask for right????...i have an empty feeling.. im a christian so it's prolly why i feel like that but i cant give anything up... i actually dont want to, but i dont wanna feel like this either... whatever.. bye..

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sigh... [25 Feb 2005|09:25am]
[ mood | sad ]

yesturday.. huge fight with my dad...whatever.. im going to be out the whole weekend.. time to say get kite like.. as usual... last night i just went out on my balcony and i was like sooo chill and michelle called and we talked for a good hour and than we hung up and went to sleep. Im sleepin over my brothers tonite-i hope... ill go sleep on the beach if i have to... i just dont wanna go home.. its like a fucking pretty nightmare.. like i have everything i want material wise but im so strangled.. he loves having power over me.. i hate him... i mean. i love him cuz he's my dad but i really hate him..only 10more months till i can do WHATEVER the fuck i wanna do and he cant say shit... im just anticipating that day like no other day.. life is really a big pile of shit.. plus. im lonely. im in the same boat as jessica..whatever.. my day(s) will come... and im sure it will be worth it all.

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soo..yeah uh huh [24 Feb 2005|12:08am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

uhh huhh...im eating cough drop..i have really bad cotten mouth..and once again..im makin like a kite....well, a kite on a windy day. i dont even know how the hell my fingers are getting to these letters so fast. its like woooshhh....cool right? yeah uhh huh..so high like high in the sky.. so WAIT..OMG I cant believe in forgot. earlier tontie i went to the kava bar with michelle n bobby and i sung!!! i was so nervous and my voive was skaing but everyone told me i was really good.. even though i know i wasnt....anyway..im not stage fright anymore now that i did it..its weird to me to know how stars can just walk in front of millions of people and not even be nervous...i wonder if they ever choke on their tounges trying to talk when their scared...so many conspiracies and just not even time in 10minuets for me to ponder up anymore on my live journal.. i dont even have my own journal anymore, but noope.. i just come online and spill my guts , not realizing in this state i cant think on the same level as a normal human being? man....who knows who knows...IF YOU KNOW, JUST LET ME KNOW....later alligater...

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Woah... [21 Feb 2005|12:38am]
[ mood | high ]

I just got home.. i was at my brothers house... all i have to say for myself is woah.. Im proud..no empahsis needed.. Well this weekend has  been pretty awesome all weekend. Friday i went to the Kava Bar and "chilled" and yesturday i went got another tat and than i went to work than went to Bobby's house and hung out and than a BRILLIANT plan was composed. We eaided a thrift shop-his Grandma's. I got a bunch of cool crap and this little candle holder hatian woman and shes NAKED!!!-haha.Well than i worked today and than i went to my brothers house and chilled with the a few others and once again "chilled"..now im trying to finish this up so i can pass out before work tommorow.Im loving this chapter..later...

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School... [16 Feb 2005|10:14am]
[ mood | drained ]

Tired as usual. I went to bed at around 11:30pm but i didnt fall asleep until like 12:45.. it was gay. Well. i set my alarm clock for 6a.m but as usual.. i didnt hear the alarm clock until about 6:48-lol.. But no need to rush-right??Well yes there is , but i chose not to, and i got done on time.. i mean, yeah, my room looks like the cookie monster ran through it and couldnt find anything, and my bathroom is prolly full of dirt from my feet because i scoot my feet aorund on the balcony.- but i still looked decent for school and smelled good, thats all the really matters right?-lol.Anyway.. i have to work again tonite. last night was hell. Tonite we are getting a new boy and his name is Phillip. i wonder what he looks like... i know you do also....This crazy stalker boy keeps calling me..help!.. ok. well im in school right now. i didnt turn in my h.w for English 3. i dont have any US History notes done. i didnt do my Chemistry homework, and im going to totally fail my Algebra 2 test today... why the fuck am i even in school...!!!!.. grr.. yes i know.. i agree... <3.. later

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Words carved in my chest [15 Feb 2005|11:17pm]
[ mood | high ]

I feel like a kite.. la la la.. Im just sittin in my room lookin at this screen and listening to The Spill Canvas.. Its so amazing. i wish i would have known about them sooner.. Well.. im not really in the state of mind to sit in front of my keyboard and type.. Boys.,.. Boys of Boys.. u suck.. i wish i was a lesbian. it would be so much easier. grrr..later

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Stress.... [07 Feb 2005|01:19pm]
[ mood | worried ]

I havent written in a few days.. i've been pretty busy. Well on Friday i went to the carnival and to the movies with some of my friends and that night michelle and ambz spents the night. Saturday we hung out and than we went to eat lunch. Michelle left and Ambz and I went to work. After work, Michelle, Me , and this kid Bobby went to the Nakava Bar.. That was cool except that the Kava made my lips munb and i smoked to many ciggarettes because everyone was so relaxed and i was so unrelaxed.  Yesturday i woke up and me and Ambz went to church than i went to work. After work i went to siper-bowl party with my parents and michelle... I ended up meeting a guy... LaLaLa... thats all i have to say.. im on cloud 8 right now... i need to find cloud 9....

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School... [31 Jan 2005|01:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Just another day.. I had about 3 hours of sleep last night because i was up until 2 doing homework than i had to shower and all that stuff...I only have an hour and a half left at school.. i cant wait. I wanna go to sleep.. i will do my homework and than i may go to sleep.. Grr. i have to work tommrow.. ok.. ill write more later.. later.. xoxo

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It's Friday.... [30 Jan 2005|04:43am]
[ mood | indifferent ]

So.. i havent written in  a few days.. I qork at Offerdauls grill/cafe now in Lighthouse point.. its pretty straight. My bastard Michelle is going to try and get a job right around the corner from me. That will be FuUuN. My tat is almopst completely healed, it itches like a bitch though. Tonite i am going to my homecomiong at my school, but im just making an appearance. But than me and Michelle are going to see Hide and Seek... CHARLIE DID IT... That fuck..Ok, well.. Ill write more later, im at school and im being surrounded,...-

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Passanger... [23 Jan 2005|02:04am]
[ mood | rushed ]

Well.. it's 2:00 am and we just got home about 2 minuets ago. Today was the longest fuckin day ever. Poor Michelle had to drive all day. We put atleast 100miles on her car today.We went to South Beach with Nicole and Jessica and ate at a gay resturant/bar.. it was so awesome but alittle strange. Than we left and dropped Nicole and Jessica back at their houses, went to my house, went to solid sounds, went to Ronnies house and chilled with such kind souls. I just ate a piece of pizza with ranch dressing on it and now i feel like im going to throw up (all over michelle).. well, i have to wake up in about 4 hours and i have to work tommorow, so im off. Farewell..*AnDrEa

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[21 Jan 2005|10:24am]
[ mood | bored ]

Review of 2004

 1. What age did you turn?
16 but i m 17 now

2. How many bands did you see perform?
ok.. hmm. i was locked up for like 6months so i spent 6 months is 2004.. i prolly saw .. i dunno.. alot..

3. Which band did you see the most?
?? i dont remember

4. What phrase/word did you say the most?

5. How many jobs did you have?

6. Meet anyone famous?

7. Did you travel anywhere?
orlando,jaxonville,panama city...

8. Worst kiss?

9. Best kiss?
I dont remember...

10. How many crushes did you have?

11. How many parking tickets did you get?

12. How many times arrested?
umm...once last year

13. How many times did you get kicked out of a bar?
no bars.

14. How many fist fights did you have?
none last year... oh wait.. one

15. Did you fall in love?
never fell out

16. How many people did you sleep with?

17. Favorite LP bought?
what the hell is that...

18. What bad habit did you develop?
smokin.. but i always have

19. Most consumed drink?
arizona green tea

20. Most consumed shot?

21. What one thing were you most happy to accomplish?
getting out of CT 

22. What was your saddest experience/moment?
march 04-seeing caesar

23.What were you for Halloween?
a pissed of kid in CT

24. What did you do for your birthday?

25. Where were you for new years?
kendall's hotel party.

26. Who was your first kiss at midnight on new years?

27. Did you break any hearts?
Tommy... sorry... we are friends though

28. Did your heart get broken?
broken is an understatment

29. How many relationships were you in?
real relationships?

30. How many of these silly surveys did you answer?
not many... no time

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Omg.. it's ur birthday... [21 Jan 2005|10:07am]
[ mood | cynical ]

Today hasnt started off great. I didnt wake up and at like 7:15 my cell is ringing and i was like AHHH  and i jumped into the shower. Than i called my brother so he could bring me to school and he was telling me how he got the new Grand Theft Auto Game from his friend for his birthday (he's 23) and i was just like "cool cool" and than like 10 minuets later i was like "holy crap, it's ur birthday"!.. it's was really funny cause i completley forgot.. It's Allen's birthday too :(.. ::sigh:: Michelle is coming over tonite and we are going to have a sad emo night and be sad emo girls... My tat is started to scab alittle and it sucks so bad.. i hate it.. i just want it to get better.., Man, i miss LuLu.. She's my pessimist and im her negative.. She is such a bitch and i love her for it.. Anyway.. i got to run. Im in my study hall.I'll probably write more tommorow or tonite.. LaTeR.. 

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::sigh:: [20 Jan 2005|01:17am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Well. i woke up this morning, walked into my parents room and i was like "im sick and im tired and i dont wanna go to school", and so i got back into bed and slept until like 12. Than i watched tv and shit, went online and CLEANED my room, even though i have shit all on my bed.Hmm. than i took a shower around 4 and went to youth group with Amber.. Oh, did i fail to mention the HUGE fight with my dad. Yeah.. that's a common thing.. I told him i'd rather be ghetto and live in the projects than live with him-lol.. Than there was drama with a specific someone but i'll fail to mention names.. Im so stressed and frustrated.. Message to all guys: YOU ALL SUCK!.. anywayz..My ink hurts. It's almost 1:30 in the morning and im not tired at aall.. Whatever.. see ya.. xoxo.

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Ive been holding it in... [18 Jan 2005|07:53pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

When i say ive been holding it in.. im talking about the potty.. man i have to pee.. Today was just another day at school.. My back hurts like hell from the tattoo and im hungry. Im bored also. I went to the shrink today.. I didnt like it very much. This weekend i have NO work-im soo excited.. Ok.. well there isnt much to say or do so im going to get my ass out of this chair and go pee and take a break out on the balcony.. Later.. Keep up the goodwork.. Farewell to all... xoxo

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What a Day... [17 Jan 2005|11:46pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Ok. so this weekend has been interesting.Today i got my first ink. It was terrible but i absolutely love it. Kendall and i basically chilled all day. What is better than that?-lol.. We went over to Stacy's house. shes a sweetie. Anyway. i got school tommorow. Im tired. U bastards out if hell. I need 5 dollars for rent. michelle, so do u!... Keep up the goodwork and Farewell to all. xoxo

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You Bastard From Hell...! [16 Jan 2005|01:27pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Ok.. wow!.. i took a wonderful fall tonite.. what an ending..lol..My boobies hurt from that great big fall. I don't wanna go to sleep either. Im scared that they might come get me. Michelle is pissing me off because shes stealing my face pads and pressuring me to do yoga. I just want to sleep man.. Anyway.. we went to some weird boca resturant.. it was cool. It was I, Michelle,Ferbie and the Kendall.We saw the White Noise~it scared me shitless *Rest In Peace Michelle*....Then we went to Denny's where i was classified as a hippie.. I saw my princess, i talked on like 6way, had an encounter with the sperm of tampons in my hot chocolate,and at the end of the night,,well i was running and i ended up (in a skirt)laying on the street..-Now we are sitting in my room, michelle is acting like a 45 year old fat man and im about to listen to gay music. I wish u the best of luck. Goodnight,Farewell..*NeA*
p.s. Ur an asswhole

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Oh.. It's Friday.. [14 Jan 2005|01:36pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Today i am no longer a virgin to Live Journal.. I'm in school in computer class right now and i basically just waste my time this hour. I work tonite. How absolutely wonderful (sarcasm is sometimes necessary).. I have cramps.. ok, i gotta go ho.. there isnt't much more to day, i'll wirte more tommorow..

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